It's My Birthday... I'm Gonna Party Like It's My Birthday...

Hellooooooo!
It's my birthday! Those of you who know me really well know how much I love my birthday. I know this sounds super selfish, but it's weird not having acebook. Seriously. It's very typical to have LOADS of people wish you a happy birthday and it's kind of nice to just get a few texts. I realized I only know people's birthdays because of Facebook. So, I'm sorry to everyone because I probably will never wish you a happy birthday again. Because Facebook has made all of us horrible friends who don't remember birthdays anymore haha! Anyways, life has been okay. I went to sushi with some friends on saturday (thanks Laura and Larissa) and then on Sunday, Jarrod and I went to Popeyes and then we made an awesome steak dinner with alfredo, salad, and garlic bread. YUM! The best thing about being a chef is, occasionally, when I'm in the mood, I can make myself whatever I want. It's rare that I actually want to cook for myself but it was fun. Jarrod definitely enjoyed it!
Side note: I get a LOT of work done without facebook. Whenever I have to have stuff done for work or just stuff around my house, I actually think to get it done. I used to just come home and scroll and scroll and then be overwhelmed because I still had so much to do. That's not a problem anymore and I love it. Sometimes I get bored and wish I could get on it and then I find something else to do. It's Awsome. You all should try it.
Side note: My boss/bestie made me the most amazing cake for my birthday. She spent her whole day off making me a triple layer chocolate cake with PIE BAKED INTO IT! PIE! BAKED INTO THE FRIGGIN' CAKE! Seriously. It's so effing good.

Goodbye Facebook! (I think)

Okay. Here goes. I'm going to be blogging and trying to be away from facebook. I'm trying to maintain things in my life that are positive, and only positive. I'm realizing that Facebook isn't that positive for me right now. I feel like I'm partially being very selfish. I feel like since my dad died it's been very hard to see all the shit people bitch about and it all seems so simple. I would trade almost (and I definitely say almost in this) all of you. I know. That's unfair. But it really has been hard. I feel like mentally I haven't been able to process anything since he died because I feel like I needed to stay productive. I've turned that into work. Way too much work. My dad always talked a lot about the importance of work and how it was good to have a distraction. He would always tell me that being productive created a sense of self worth and would always get me through my problems. That's been true for the most part. I love my job. Seriously. I love it. It's the best job I've ever had. But it's also the hardest. I feel like physically I've been able to keep up but mentally I'm really behind. And now that I feel like I'm finally ready to start grieving, I can't. It would be really unfair to tell a new job that I now need some leave for something that happened several months ago. So, I've decided to try to keep as much negativity as I can out of my life. It's not just that I hate seeing people complain. That's really not even the majority of my problem. I just feel like it's really hostile. I feel like I have soooooo many friends (according to facebook) until I actually need something or want to do something, and suddenly I have nobody to call. If you have my information, please keep in touch. Please don't take it personally when I say that if you don't have my information then maybe we weren't really very good friends to begin with. That's okay! Seriously, there are so many people who I've enjoyed just watching on Facebook. I know it sounds stupid but there really are a lot of people on my list that I just enjoy keeping up with and seeing how their life is turning out. But it's also an information overload. An overload that my very exhausted brain can't handle right now. I may post this, delete my page, and be back in 24 hours. I might not be back. I really don't know. There's a part of me that loves it and part of me that feels like I just don't need it in my life right now. The obsession of posting something and constantly checking to see if someone liked it or commented on it is unhealthy. I know a lot of people have a lot of solutions, but my real problem is self discipline, which I don't have. I can't just get rid of the app on my phone. I can't just limit myself to checking it one day a week. I really can't. I don't have that talent haha! Anyways, I will post pictures and 'thoughts' on here for those of you who are interested. I love keeping up with everyone on facebook and I've appreciated my ability to very easily stay in touch. But I'd also like to see what kind of genuine attention I can give to people and also get from people if I can't easily access that information. So. Those of you reading this are probably the people who will read it again so, thank you very much! And, here's a few thoughts that I've been meaning to post:
1. I had to get a physical for work, as well as a TB test. My heart rate was 107. OMG. And that was AFTER sitting in the office for 20 minutes waiting. 
2. I totally cried while watching Vikings. Seriously. It's an amazing show and I'm so addicted. 
3. Guys, there's a Dragon Heart 3. It's on Netflix. 
4. I hate secret menus. 
5. Skin tags are really hard to pull off. Also they bleed a lot more than expected. 
6. It's almost my birthday. If you know me well, you know how much I love my birthday. 
7. I really want to go back to Harry Potter World.